outfit 001

Abercrombie Kate Vintage polo. Abercombie Rebecca Denim shorts. Rebels shoes

too much plaid?

is there a such thing as wearing too much plaid.
i love all these button up plaid shirts.
though if i purchaced all em.
would you think i wore too much plaid?
not only that too much blue?

My prayers were answered...

Sunday morning (may 30th) i woke up, i was soo tired, sleepy and sluggish. I couldn't get outta bed. And had a grumpy attitude and didnt wanna go to church. I was gonna work out that day. I thought to myself idk how i'm gonna make it!

I still got up outta bed. And of course i didnt know what to wear. I went to church and i was sitting there wanting to leave already to sleep, the fact it was soo cold. And i never had that kind of attitude. So when we all went to the alter to pray i started praying saying god help to help myself. Help me w/ toning my body. To know what to do. And for me to see results.

Well later that day i went to the gym. Tammy came to get her memebership. I was w/ her and the salesman asked her when does she want her training session. And so basically tammy and i r getting a free training session.

Thats crazy! Its jus what i needed. I can find out what i need to do. And ask what to do. Isn't it funny? How God gave me an opportunity! And the fact that i was soo grumpy and irriated that day. Wth! Why wud god do this? God is too good! Seriously I don't deserve it. And not only that i didnt even give any offering.

All i have to say is thank u Jesus! Even it if doesn't work out. At least i got the opportunity! But i have faith that this is gonna help me out. Otherwise he wouldn't give me a chance. I'm still gonna keep praying on it to keep foward. I gotta show god that i'm determined! And i'll put my effort and beyond. Go knows whats up. He knows how i am, the fact i lost 96+ and still continuing! He knows i'm fer sure abt this.

next hair style 001

four; get this hair style.
(w/ my current hair color. add two extensions on the side)

three; should i get this hair style, with my current hair color.
(but if i get this style, I'd have to get a weave w/ a cap, partial)

two; (similar to pic #1 - get hair cut, but add extensions)


one; stay original.
(get a trim, choppy at the crown, to get the look in this pic)

just open your eyes

Not feeling as bad as i did earlier! But i was really into this guy. And i jus don't like the fact he didnt give me space to get over him and get over being hurt. And i think hes selfish because he is concerned abt what he wants. Which is us to be frnds because he supposedly cares abt me so much and likes my company and doesn't wanna lose me. But he didn't think abt what i wanted. So why should he get what he wants. I try to avoid him; Not talk to him but of course when i do he'll bug me abt whats wrong. He doesnt understand i need space! Him in my face isn't gonna help me get over him. It makes me more sad that he has a gf. And it makes me feel like i'm not good enough.

missin' my old hair

dude i miss my hair! when i look back at it. i love it. and the thing is i would shampoo my hair
regularly jus to i can get the color out. looking at old pix of February my hair was really pretty.
now its dull and don't have the same hair cut anymore!

Love, crushes, relationships and all that bs! It's been on my mind the past few months. And everyone trying to find the one, or jus dating around. Its soo much to deal w/ plus with my situation. Itd be nice to be in a relationship. But i feel like i would feel obligated to have sex w/ the person i'm with.

But for my situation, i really liked this guy. And of course he doesnt want to be in a relationship because he jus got outta of a serious relay. And and he lacks feelings for any female supposedly. Its not that i want be in a relay w/ him but at least know that he has feelings for me as i do for him. It saddens me, because i spent time to know him and liking him and its bascially all for nothing.

And on the other hand i currently at the moment missing an old crush. I miss the way he made me feel. But i think overall he was bullshit. A liar, a fake, and 2 faced.
Then i'm missing another guy but all he does is wants to fuck. And i'm not down w/ that.